This blog is dedicated to you.I just want to tell you how I feel about everything that has recently happened.
I know I did you wrong. I know I've hurt you big time. It hurts me so much to know that I'm hurting you this much. How could I do such a thing? But yes, I did it. I know it was the worst thing I could ever ever do to you.
I don't know what was going in my mind. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do to make things right again. We still kept arguing until the sun rises and it was morning. It hurt so much to see how much of a bad girlfriend I really am. Yet, it hurt me so much to know how much you're in pain and I could not prove you wrong to make you feel at ease. I feel so so bad.
At that very moment when you were about to end it all. Tears started filling up my eyes and my hands were shaking. I could not believe everything was going to end. It was and only my fault. My stubbornness always gets to me gah. I didn't know what to do at that time. But I was really sure of one thing I must do. I didn't want to let go and I won't. I didn't want to lose you. It feels like my world was going to collapse. I just cried cause it hurts so much. I was so scared that we'll go our separate ways from that moment on. I was feeling lost, I just know that I can not lose you. I really love you. I really do. Stay with me. Please don't leave.
I have been thinking. Maybe, you'll be better off without me.It will hurt you, since I'm the one causing it. Maybe, you deserve someone better. You deserve more than this. On the other hand, even if you did agree you would be better off without me I wouldn't let you go anyways because I don't want to be away from you, ever.
Boy, I love you so so so much.
I am so sorry for what I've done. I am so sorry for causing you so much pain. I am so sorry for my stubbornness. I am so sorry for my bad attitude. I am so sorry for everything.
I am really thankful of you that you have forgiven me. I am really thankful of you that you still want to be with me. I am really thankful of you for still loving me. I am really thankful of you for accepting my bad sides.
I just want you to know that, I do feel really bad towards what has happened. I do feel really happy that you're still with me. Hopefully because of this it will make our relationship stronger.
I am here to make you happy and feel like the luckiest boy alive :) I don't want to cause you any pain, not at all.
Like I have said earlier, I will try to change because I want to be the best I can be for you. You must also help me because YOU are the reason why I change for the better :)
I, Le Phan really really really love you, Hien Lam :) hehe
