Happy one year, Hien Lam :)

I love you so so so dam much. I dont' know where I'll be without you. We have been through so much. There is nothing that would tear us apeart. I love you for who you are. You have shared and taught me many wonderful things. I can't see my future without you.

ONE YEAR

Happy one year anniversary Le. I love you with all my heart and soul :) <3

If what I am is not what you want, then please, do whatever you want.

After all these fights, what have you learnt?

Is it to continue to find my bad traits and expose them?

Why do I have to tell you everything from head to toe. I've waited patiently to see how you would grow after these arguments but everything still remains the same. There was not ONCE that you said that you will try and get used to it. All you do is sit there, say whatever you have to say, then think it's over after I get angry.

I'm sick of all this. I am the only one making sacrifices. I never asked you to make any, all I asked was for you to try and get used to things. I may have you now, but what if I don't have you here anymore. Will I just be this one guy who's lost everything? You are definitely very special to me, but no matter how special you are, I still have my own life and you have yours.

You're always saying that I always yell and make you feel bad. Do you honestly think I purposely make you feel bad? No way. All I did was try to prove my point.

"When you're happy, you say good things about me and always reject the bad side of me. "

If we were not in bad moods, do I need to bring up the bad side of you? Do you think I that I need to? Why would you even say that? If any couple are having a good time, why would one of them bring up their other person's bad side.

"When you're angry you bring up all the bad side of me and don't see the good in me."

When you get angry at me, do YOU see the good in me? I don't know but from what I believe, no. I'm sure everybody is like this. You can not I am doing you bad by doing this.

The reason why I can not stand anything of this anymore is because you always seem to bring up the most pointless things to start a fight. You may say you didn't do it on purpose but why couldn't you have just thought about what I would say about it. Wouldn't it be clear to you by then that it 'could' initiate a fight?

You get annoyed and angry at me over the littlest things yet you say I always get angry at you.

You say that you're not stopping me, you're just 'telling' me how you feel. Then you would say that I don't need to consider your feelings, just do whatever I please. If you HONESTLY think that, you wouldn't have told me how you felt about it.

I am not enjoying life as much as I used to right now. . I just want to get away from all this drama for awhile. Go on a holiday. Travel somewhere where I don't know anyone.

If you honestly love me, you would at least show me that you are willing to try, and not say that you try once you have nothing else to argue back with.

That is all,

Goodbye, goodnight, for good.

I want to spend a day in your arms again. I miss your warmth. I hate your cold good byes.

They say loving you gives pains and full of sacrifices, but I'll rather take pains and lots of sacrifices than not to be love by you.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.

Happy 10 Months babyyyy :)

I love you soooo much!! Thank you for always being there for me and treating me like a princess :D MWUAH! I love youuuu from head to toes :P You are such a sweet boy. My life is always brighter with you in it :)

HAPPY 9 MONTHHHHHHS :)

woooooo can't wait to see you tonight!!

MWUAH LOVE YOU LOADS HUNNY BUNNY HUBBY CHUBBY

I'll see you soon ;)

Happy eight months ♥

I love youuuu, Hien Lam :)

Wow, it is our eight months today. Time does flies by.

This month has been full of ups and downs. We both got to understand each other better and learn from our mistakes. I was able to open myself more to you and was able to take in on what you say. Our bond is now stronger than ever. I trust you with all I have and I love you with all my heart. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for being very understanding and take in all my bad mood swings. I love being by your side, it completes my day :)

You are such an adorable boy ^__^ I love you so much. I really enjoyed my day with you. MWUAH!

I miss you, more than ever. So please, make the days go by fast so I can see you soon :/

I love you, Le Phan.

Happy 7 months ♥

Le phan, you are the cause of my pain. Yet you are the heroine in my life.

Soooo, I have decided to enjoy my heroine, at the same time go through a bit of pain (once in a while, that is! :D)

I love you and that is all that matters, even if we fight nonstop.

Because all I know is that if you weren't here, the pain that I would have to suffer would be far greater than any pain that you've caused me.

I'm sorry for being such a jerk. I know I am a crazy son of a bitch who rages over little things, including dota! :L but we all have our flaws, and those are the things that we have to accept in one another.

I know we fight over and over again but pleaase, they come and go as often as fatboys walk in and out of Maccas! So I will promise you that I will try 110% to make us perfect. Oh wait, we're already perfect so what am I talking about >:D

Well let's just say, I don't want to be the reason why you shed tears everynight.

I don't know what I can do to stop this but I know I can!

So just be a little patient because sooner or later, there would be no such thing as a 'fight' between us anymore! There'd only be joy, love and happiness with me, nothing else :)

I love you Le Phan, so don't go crying! but you won't ever cry anymore because I'm here stop it!

And if I don't, then I guess it's my shout for lunch again /sigh! joking :) $_______$

Night babe, thanks for ending last night with a smile instead of frown. Love you from top to toe, from left to right, from 1cm of a ruler to 30cms! :D

i love you

because you like purple and I do tooo! :D

Our very first Valentine's Day

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAYYY :)



It's our very first Valentine's day togetherrrrrr :D haha Aww I am so glad I was able to spend it with you and I am so glad that everything turned out well :)
Although we do get into many arguments, everythign will be fine as long as the both of us work hard and keep this relationship going, right? ^__^

Yeah, we been through plenty but what's a relationship without hard work, tears, pain, fights, forgiving, caring, trust, honesty and of course loving. Liek you said a relationship can not be perfect :P Nothing is haha.

I love you loadssssssssssss! I love your Valentine's gift as much as you love mine's :D haha
Awww you adorable boy, just can't get enough of youuuuu :)

Don't forget that there will be more Valentine's Day for us :P

I freaken love you

HAPPY 6 MONTHS HUNNYY :)

awww I love you so much. Oh my god, has it been only 6 months? It felt so much longer I swear haha :) Well you know this is just the beginning cause you're stuck with me for life :P buwhaha Thank you for making my day ended so well :) As long as I'm with you I'm feeling happy already. There is still a long way for us and I'm sure we will work out all of our problems together like what we have been doing :) I am so glad to have you in my life.

I'm so sorry but I love you

This blog is dedicated to you.
I just want to tell you how I feel about everything that has recently happened.

I know I did you wrong. I know I've hurt you big time. It hurts me so much to know that I'm hurting you this much. How could I do such a thing? But yes, I did it. I know it was the worst thing I could ever ever do to you.

I don't know what was going in my mind. I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do to make things right again. We still kept arguing until the sun rises and it was morning. It hurt so much to see how much of a bad girlfriend I really am. Yet, it hurt me so much to know how much you're in pain and I could not prove you wrong to make you feel at ease. I feel so so bad.

At that very moment when you were about to end it all. Tears started filling up my eyes and my hands were shaking. I could not believe everything was going to end. It was and only my fault. My stubbornness always gets to me gah. I didn't know what to do at that time. But I was really sure of one thing I must do. I didn't want to let go and I won't. I didn't want to lose you. It feels like my world was going to collapse. I just cried cause it hurts so much. I was so scared that we'll go our separate ways from that moment on. I was feeling lost, I just know that I can not lose you. I really love you. I really do. Stay with me. Please don't leave.

I have been thinking. Maybe, you'll be better off without me.It will hurt you, since I'm the one causing it. Maybe, you deserve someone better. You deserve more than this. On the other hand, even if you did agree you would be better off without me I wouldn't let you go anyways because I don't want to be away from you, ever.

Boy, I love you so so so much.

I am so sorry for what I've done. I am so sorry for causing you so much pain. I am so sorry for my stubbornness. I am so sorry for my bad attitude. I am so sorry for everything.

I am really thankful of you that you have forgiven me. I am really thankful of you that you still want to be with me. I am really thankful of you for still loving me. I am really thankful of you for accepting my bad sides.

I just want you to know that, I do feel really bad towards what has happened. I do feel really happy that you're still with me. Hopefully because of this it will make our relationship stronger.

I am here to make you happy and feel like the luckiest boy alive :) I don't want to cause you any pain, not at all.

Like I have said earlier, I will try to change because I want to be the best I can be for you. You must also help me because YOU are the reason why I change for the better :)

I, Le Phan really really really love you, Hien Lam :) hehe

five months, now until forever.

i can't believe it's only been 5 months. It feels much longer than this, but that doesn't matter. as long as i'm with her, i don't care :)
just a quick blog to congratulate ourselves :D and yeah, sorry for not blogging, i don't care about you guys anyways. this blog was made for le :P well see you later alligator >;)

I love you Le Phan, never gonna let you go :)